A random reappearance

Aloha All,

Yes, it's me, making an appearance but 2 years later.

It may only be two years, but I have gone through way more than I ever thought I would. But with going through something, you've learned to change, to adapt, and it may not be completely how I visioned myself but, I'm far happier. On this rollercoaster journey, one I'm still battling day after day, one that's getting easier, I assure you, I'm learning and I'm experiencing.

As I am writing now, I acknowledge my feeling of calm. A feeling that when I first experienced it, made me question my every move. This is new, I thought as I sat on my bus, this is different. In a world, especially high school, and I understand this may not apply to everyone, that's so highly intense I forgot what it was like to take a breath. On this roller coaster journey, I am referring too, I knew I'd feel happier as I worked on myself. My affirmations. But I never knew the calm that existed.

With every test, I feel thankful I passed, every interaction not overthought but a simple acknowledgement of the fact that I am an introverted person or perhaps I'm simply tired.

Yes, this may sound ultra spiritual, seeking your inner calm 🧘‍♀️ etc etc.

But this isn't something I found while mediating, with my hair on end and stress piqued. I didn't learn to 'breath in like I'm filling a balloon'. I found someone who helped me trust myself.

I am happy to announce I am one month, one week TV clean. That's right, I have not watched TV for myself, in one month. Because I no longer need it to calm my echoing mind.

Now, the point of this blog is not to brag, not to gloat about how I'm calm, how I've not turned on TV, no. It's about the fact that I truly believe in you, that we will set out upon this journey together and we will learn to breathe. (I promise you this is not a cult).

Because I believe in you.

I look forward to the next blog next week. In that blog, I will talk about some perhaps random thoughts and random lessons.

Thanks,

IZZZYYY